Singing

Dear Readers

I want my voice to be noticed :( I honestly think i'm okay and some of my friends and family have said i'm really good. I just wanna try it out and see what other people think about it. But i can't because i have to wait till next year for Aussie Idol and i can't think of any other way to be noticed :(

The Right Guy

Dear Readers,

I have found the right guy for me :) He saved me from making one of the most, and probably the most, stupidest mistake of my life. In my blog 'Welcome To My Life' i had been tipped over the edge completely and was going to do something really stupid. That's when James stopped me and showed me how special i am to people. He is the greatest and i can't thank him enough. I've liked him for a while to be honest with you.

He knows how to make me smile and laugh. He says the sweetest thing and makes me feel good about myself. He hugs me and kisses me constantly which makes me feel special. He tells me he loves me all the time which gives me strength and relief that he's mine.

No body's perfect, but i recon he'd come pretty damn close.

I love you so so much James. You've saved my life literally. I can't thank you enough for it. You make me feel so special and good about myself. There's no words that can describe how strongly i feel for you. I love you so much

Sorry

Dear Readers,

Sorry about my last post being so negative. I wasn't in a good mood.

One of my 'friends' (well i thought he was a friend) asked me to tell him about the stuff my family's been through. So him being my friend, i told him. And he told me that the only reason i told him was because i'm looking for attention and because i want sympathy. Well he is totally wrong and that is NOT the case. I told him because i needed to get some stuff off my chest and he told me to tell him anyway.

So this is just to say i'm sorry for the negativity. I guess i just took it out on the blog. So yeah, sorry

Welcome To My Life

Here's why i'm so negative most of the time:
*My mum cheated on my dad back in April 2008 and didnt break up with him till June 2008

*One of my friends died of an asthma attack start of 2008

*My great gandfather died in september 2008

*Ive been trying to keep whats left of my family together for 7months now, doing all the work by myself

*I've lost friends over the things my mother has done

*I dont talk to anyone about my problems because most people think i want attention and that i want people to feel sorry for me

WELL I DONT WANT ANYONE TO FEEL SORRY FOR ME!! Everyone has their own problems to think about! I don't want help! I dont want sympathy! I dont want anything except for it all to be over!!! And the sooner the better!! :(

Bordem

bored. bored, bored, more bored, bored, boring, boring, bored, bored..... more bored

Friends

Dear Readers,

What do you think makes a true friend? Is it their personality? Is it that they can joke about everything? Is it that they stick by you through anything?

Well i think it's all of the above. A friend is someone you can count on for anything. A friend is someone you can trust to be your secret keeper. They're always by your side through thick and thin. And they always help you when you need it. There is so much a friend is and so many certain characteristics that they can hold. My friends have been there for me through everything. Well my true friends anyway. Ive lost some due to a break up that was 'my fault'. I've lost some because my mother decided to make a bad impression of herself in public. And others i've lost because of being with the wrong guy. Well at least i know who my true friends are.

And if Damo, Jess, Gemma, Elly, Caitlin, Ashlee, Teagan, James, Tom or Clinton are reading this, you guys, i wouldn't be anywhere if it weren't for you lot. So thank you SO much. And sorry to anyone i've missed

The Word Slut

Dear Readers,

What exactly is the word slut? Does it hurt if it's just a word? And what does it actually mean?

Definition of slut: A dirty, untidy woman

Well if thats it's definition, then why is it such a hurtful word? Why have people made up a different definition of the word?

Modern day definition of slut: A woman who goes looking for sex with whoever she can

So what's the point in changing the definition.

You'd be amazed at how many people use the word and out of it's terms. For instance, a woman could be wearing baggy clothes and get called a slut. A woman may have slept with one guy (that was her boyfriend) and get called a slut. What's the point in making a word if it's going to be mis-used anyway?

Hmmmmmmmmm

Online Journal

Dear Readers,

I guess i should have put this at the start so that people wouldn't get confused over what i'm writing. Well this is basically my online journal, not just every day stuff. Well i guess it could be. but it's mainly a journal. Just thought i'd add this so people wont think that my writing style is weird.

Marriage

Dear Readers,

Yeah i'm really quick to write again. But i just had a thought, i was considering going to bed until i looked up at an anniversary card that WAS my mum and dads. I got thinking, can love really last that long. My parents didn't. So how does that give me the confidence that one of my romances will last that long. Yeah i'm young now, but how do i know im going to meet someone special. You have childhood flings, boyfriends etc. But i guess, no one knows for certain if you'll keep a person for that long. You might just be lucky, or even unlucky. That's the suckiest thing about fate.. You never know whats going to happen.

Well i better get some sleep now. Ive barely had any for the last 3days. Hope to write again soon. Expecially about the actual story with my parents split.

Night

The Perfect Man

Dear Readers

-Is there such a thing as the perfect man? Is there really a guy out there that is absolutely perfect for one person? And if so, does everyone get one for themselves?

My perfect guy i guess would have to be:

*Funny and be able to take a joke

*Like me for me and not anything else

*Smart and sporty would be good but im not picky

*He'd know exactly how to make me laugh and cheer me up

*He'd be able to let me talk for hours and not get tired of my voice

*He'd lay with me under the stars and watch them shoot across the sky

*He'd help me understand things that i sometimes cant see

*He'd be so much more than just an ordinary guy

-And thats only the start of things. But i'm a bit tired after work today and i can't think straight. I guess to sum it all up for tonight is that, i do believe there's one special guy out there for everyone. Sometimes you have to search for them... But somtimes, they're right in front of you. And you just havn't noticed them yet.

-So, to all you readers out there, i guess if you truely believe that there's a guy out there for you, that's all that matters. And don't let anyone tell you that you're crazy. Cause if you believe, that's all that you should care about.